Everyone has a story. Some are pretty average and some are captivating and extraordinary. Mine falls into the “pretty average” category. But, even in my simple little life, extraordinary faith, hope, and love have shaped who I am today.
My name is Wendy, and this is my testimony. It's lengthy, transparent and reflects my heart. More importantly, I hope it encourages yours.
For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.
- Romans 10:13
My story begins like many others … I am an only child, born in one state, moved to another, and raised in the middle class suburbs. My parents divorced when I was 10 and my world totally changed. I lived with with my mom and spent every other weekend with my dad (and step-mom after he remarried).
After high school, college didn’t seem all that great, or necessary, so I lived at home for a while and started working retail full time. After a couple years, I found a roommate and struck out on my own. Eventually, I made the decision to go back to college and transitioned into the corporate world.
In August of 2007, I got married. But, I knew deep in my heart from the very beginning that it wasn’t right. I said “yes” to what I thought was a fairytale and, come to find out, fairytales clash with reality. My fairytale turned into an incredibly toxic situation that left me broken for a very long time.
Two years after we were married I filed for divorce. That's when a dear friend, and single mother of two, taught me how to live through the importance of self-accountability and intentionality. I finally began to understand what being a grown up was all about.
Though loving and supportive, I was raised in an environment with an unwritten rule to avoid conversation about divisive topics. When it came to things like money, politics and religion, it was best to leave things unsaid. So, as an adult, my understanding about God and knowledge of the Bible was very limited. I viewed church-going, Bible-believing Christians as a narrow-minded group. Yet, even though I had negative ideas about the "Christian life", I always felt a pull towards it. I wondered if God was real and admired the passion in the lives of people who believed He is.
In 2013 I met Colin and quickly noticed something was different about him. While yelling over the speakers at a country concert, I discovered that he was one of those church-going, Bible-believing Christians. I was curious and wanted to ask him a million questions but I was worried they would be offensive. And, to be honest, I felt stupid and embarrassed for asking anything at all. But Colin was open to hearing my questions and, in fact, he encouraged me to keep asking them.
I've always been a science girl, it just makes sense to me. It is predictable and orderly so naturally my first questions surrounded nature. To answer them, Colin and I began to read Case for a Creator by Lee Strobel along with the Bible. My curiosity grew and, after several invitations, I even decided to attend a Sunday morning church service. To my surprise, I actually felt welcomed! No one judged me or made me feel ashamed, embarrassed or uncomfortable. On the contrary, they seemed excited that I was asking so many questions, and, again, encouraged me to ask more!
Soon, my preconceptions and skepticism began to fade. I started attending church with Colin regularly. One Sunday, I remember looking around and thinking, “Wow! These people actually believe all of this stuff.” Contrary to what I thought of Christians in the past, these people were not a bunch of narrow-minded ignorant sheep. They were highly intelligent people who choose to believe in Jesus Christ as their Savior, and humbly live their lives to honor Him. Being a Christian to them means obediently living a deeply rooted, whole-life conviction, that every single word of the Bible is 100% true.
Knowledge of the Bible is one thing, but faith is entirely different. It takes an extraordinary amount of trust to whole-heartedly believe in something, especially when you can’t see it. Yet, that’s exactly what God asks us to do.
On September 21, 2013, I made the decision to believe. I finally accepted Jesus’ grace. By faith, I was all in! In that moment, I knew it was all real. Everything the Bible says and everything that Christ followers believe … it is all real! That was the very moment of my salvation.
God has made beautiful and incredible changes in my life since that moment. I understand why the song Amazing Grace says, “[I] was blind but now I see”. It’s like a light bulb turned on … I get it now! I understand why Christ followers devote every area of their lives to Jesus. How prisoners can “find God” and completely turn their lives around. I understand why preachers preach and choirs sing their hearts out every week praising our great and powerful Savior!
On May 31,2014, Colin and I got married. Just six weeks later, we found out we were pregnant. It was a total surprise! Sadly, four weeks after we found out, we experienced a miscarriage. Six years later, in January of 2021, after a long rollercoaster of infertility, we experienced a second miscarriage. We both felt a tremendous sense of loss and I felt like a failure. But, in both instances, almost immediately, we found peace. Not to say that we didn’t cry and grieve. We definitely did, and still do! We prayed and searched God’s word for encouraging messages of faith, hope and love.
There are no promises that a life with Christ will be perfect and easy. But I don’t need easy because I have something better. I have hope. Seemingly impossible freedom from anxiety in the midst of uncertainty, and having the confident expectation that everything is going to be okay, provides a hope that is far greater than any circumstance.
God loves us. His love for us is unconditional, intentional, limitless, steadfast and eternal. He loves me. He saved me. And I didn’t even know that I needed saving! Grace is part of love, and being a recipient of God’s grace has lead to a total transformation in my life. Oh, the amazing grace I have experienced since that day I knelt by my bed and said, “Yes” to Him!
Romans 6:17 says those who have made the choice to accept Jesus’ grace become, “…obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching to which you were committed…”. Because of God’s love, my greatest desire is no longer trying to “live my best life” my own way. Instead, it is loving God more than myself and growing in the grace and freedom of living according to His word.
It may seem contradictory to say that living according to God’s word provides freedom, but I am a living testimony it does! I have never felt more freedom! And I ever felt more alive than when I stand confidently in obedience to the Lord. All because of His limitless love for me.
The best part ...
The best thing about sharing my testimony is that it gives me the opportunity to tell you that God loves you with the exact same steadfast limitless love with which He loves me. No matter who you are, where you are, what burdens shame or guilt you're carrying hear this very clearly, friend ... GOD LOVES YOU!
John 3:16 says, “For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” If you are breathing and reading this, you are “whoever” and God loves you!
We are all created to be with God. However, the Bible tells the story of Adam and Eve, who chose to rebel against God. That rebellious nature, called sin, has been passed on to their descendants – us. Because of our sinful nature, humanity is on a fast downward spiral and we are in such disrepair that we are unable to reconcile any sort of relationship with God. The broken state of humanity and the holy state of God are completely incompatible. Our best efforts to “be a good person” are nowhere near good enough.
But the good news is that Jesus, God in the flesh, came to do what we can never do. Because He is God, Jesus lived a life of perfect obedience, something we are incapable of doing. Through his sacrificial death on the cross, Jesus paid the debt that we owe to God for our own disobedience and sin. And because he was resurrected from the dead three days after He was buried, proving that He is God, we are assured of reconciliation to God through Him forever. This is His incredible gift of grace to us. It is also the only way to eternity with God in heaven. All we have to do is accept it!
After saying yes to Jesus, my life, a life that I thought was pretty good, got even better! Once we say yes to Jesus, He gives us the Holy Spirit who lives within us and slowly begins to transform our hearts and lives. He refines and reforms us. Empowers and engages us. He gives us joy beyond circumstance, faith over fear, hope in the midst heartache and love unlimited!
If you're anything like me and you never gave much thought to God, Jesus or the Bible, I encourage you consider my testimony. I never thought I'd be one of those passionate Christians yet, here I am carefully typing my story hoping it may be an encouragement for you to ask even just one question about Christ.
The Bible is an open book and anyone who has experienced the love and grace of Jesus should be, too. Don't be afraid to ask hard questions, but be willing to hear the truth. It may sting, it may be completely different than anything you'd expect but I promise it will grow you in ways you never could have imagined!
If you don't feel comfortable asking someone in person, Got Questions is a great online resource for answers. You are more than welcome to email me. It would be my sincerest honor to share more about the limitless love of Jesus with you.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.
- John 3:16-17
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